Board Thread:Fun and Games/@comment-29980193-20200328191740/@comment-71.255.116.68-20200414153945

jesus christ

I just didn't know about all this because I don't really follow personal threads, I'm a private person, but if I did you'd bet I would have been here trying to support you. :/

nice jab at block though

I, and while I can't say this for clarity, more than anyone else here, know how it feels to deal with depression and shit like that.

I have a pretty crummy personal life as well, and my friendships are all mediocre, the entire reason why I try not to be involved in serious things both here and with other people I know is due to TONS of stress in the past about caring for people with a shitload of mental issues.

I always respected you Sakura and defended you, and I would have done it more had I been following your threads. I just don't really go to any threads unless I have a reason to, which leads to me missing a LOT of important stuff, but that's.... just kind of always how I've been here. :/

While I never really followed your tournament or any wiki-hosted tournament really, your's was really the only one I looked at besides a brief look at 24 Hours and Better Day, and it was most definitely the most well-made here by far.

While I can't really do anything to change your mind, just know that I've never just been here for the tournament, it's just my poor dealings with people, broken friendships, and past overloads and breakdowns make me constantly shy away from giving people help and hestitant to deal with anyone's problems. I've said this multiple times already but I would have been helping you from day 1 had I followed your thread, I'm just not really one for general discussion threads which is kind of what your original thread was.

Super, Tony and myself are probably the people the best at making like grandoise speeches or whatever, emotional helping stuff, idk what to call it, but just know that whatever you feel like doing, I won't stop you if it feels to you like you personally need it.

I knew I should have paid more attention to you, what with the constant breakdowns and all, can't remember but I think I at least helped for like one of them.

I have always respected you as our 'admin' and more than that, respected you as an associate and somewhat of a friend, I always valued your opinion and in fact feel like your comments and Super's were always the best, with the most thought put into them. And Tony I guess.

It will be a geniune shame to see you leave this wiki and thus many folks lives here, but if that is what you feel like you need to get order in your life, go ahead. I do not know your personal life and any offline contributions to this decision, but I have a... not so dandy home life myself. (nothing severe though don't worry y'all, more just an unstable one, too many people cooped up in the same place together for too long, and lots of people with mental problems)

While I don't believe in anything, godspeed Sakura Chiaki Rose and I hope you do well with your life if you do go through with this, I myself know I won't always be here either. Don't really know what else to say honestly, but... will most definitely be keeping a larger eye on this thread now, not that it really matters if you're leaving I guess.

Shame I couldn't have stepped in to help ease or prevent anything but that's just how life is I guess. :/